im going to have my first paper tmr,killer physics.
somehow i started to feel excited after 10pm.not that im fully prepared and extremely confident, but it is the thought that exams,once they start, will end before i know it and i can enjoy my one month holiday afterwards.
havent felt this way ever since my a level days. hope it's a good sign.
going to bed now.
so excited!!!!!!

my plan to mug over the long weekend has failed terribly,but i have enjoyed myself WITH MY CLUSTER MATES,for the first time ever since i came to nus.
on friday night, i thought i was the only one staying in the cluster,since even astrid went back to indonesia. i locked my door and closed all the windows to make sure that nothing would mysterious would come into my room. just before i went to bed, yuanyi xinling and liyue came back to the cluster from their meeting. xinling planned to stay over the weekend.yay so i wasnt alone.
had the EG1109 test on saturday morning.i knew how to do all the questions but i omitted the negative sign!how careless.i think i was too overjoyed by the fact that i could do everything.but i could do question 2 which a lot of others were unsure about it.hope i would get excellent for this test.really need to pull up my cap.
met wan qing and evadne at tanjong pagar to collect our old navy clothes from comgateway.finally they have arrived though they look slightly different from the photos shown on the website.i met wei.she's soooooooo pretty.i like this type of girl,so dainty.took train with the evadne and she recommented jj's new album to me.i like this piece by jj and a sa.it's very sweet.rushed back and had video conversation with my mom to show her all my clothes. then rushed to the conservatory of music for flinder's quartet concert.met a few orchestra people there.bumped to he yun and followed her to her room in kent ridge hall.it's quite nice but noise.took the last shuttle bus home.
met juhua in the pantry.i dont know how our topic had changed to relationship.actually i talked about it with he yun on the bus as well.i think everyone is shocked by my current attitude about relationship,even myself.am i getting more grown-up or practical?as we were talking,xinling joined us in the pantry as well and we only ended at 240am.
woke up at 11.bathed,ate,half a day gone.practised maths a little bit and i was very pleased.mopped the floor and had dinner with xinling.after we came up,we were drinking our bubble tea in the pantry.juhua joined us as well.poor her,she has attempted to study her jap for the past two nights but ended up talking with us in the pantry.soon,yuanyi came to pantry to cook her noodle and joined us.at first we were talking about their yunnan trip in december.but somehow we started our karaoke session in the pantry.we sang a lot of chinese folk songs,pop songs,ndp songs,english songs and a lot of more songs that i learnt from wanqing(关怀方式，乌龟博士，...楼下是个好地方....)it was really fun.again,we only ended at 3am.and we plan to cook tangyuan and porridge for lunch tomorrow.
im really really happy now!!!!
but 29h left to the deadline of paper 3 draft

mid term tests are finally over but im more stressed than ever

and i think i really miss you when i thought i saw you and when i actually saw you

am i getting more practical?less romantic?more mature?or whatever?
but im not the only one having this thought.so im not a weirdo
maybe this's a new age woman thing
what's wrong with the world then?

dont have to rush for all my tutorials,read for usp and iron clothes on sunday night
dont need to eat Mc for brunch,walk to adm block for usp and walk back to engin for lecture on monday.oh no,my favourite pc(t)
dont have to feel guilty for waking up late and reluctant to attend lectures from 2 to 6 on tuesday
dont need to try my very best to understand their tutors' language on wednesday.rehearsal as per normal
dont have to wake up early for eg lecture,the one and only one lecture in a week,no usp and no awful(the timing) maths lecture on thursday
dont have to struggle to get out of bed for maths lecture from 8 to 10,the one and only one lesson on friday

but i still have a lot of things to do
usp paper 2 is haunting on me everyday.went to the writing center and joel,the writing assistant really offered me great ideas and helped me to work out my motive and thesis.darwin,im coming again.
preparation for 3 mid term tests.a good chance for me to revise,to learn rather, what i have learnt so far.and i'll get serious about my work from now onwards.
and of course,i will have fun as much as can.so play till tuesday?tentatively

yay my friend,shall call her nana,is finally here.well,im actually less excited than i sound,so is she.it feels the same as meeting her in a shopping mall in my city.

and the rain.it's really annoying.planned to go sentosa today but it started raining since i woke up.checked the weather forecast and today's supposed to have the best weather( mixed cloud with sun,scattered thunderstorm) out the 9days.decided to follow our plan after lunch.we rummaged my wardrobe and tried numerous outfits(beach wears) for the hope to take glamorous snapshots with the sun,sea and sand.it was drizzling when we reached there.not too bad.after we changed to our beach wears(i think im really brave in dressing when im with her.peer pressure?nah.i think it's because she has seen all of me so i dont feel embarrassed at all),we realized how cold it was.it's alright,we assured each other.just pretended that we were going to join our friends for beach volleyball and walked away nonchalantly.i think she felt worse than me,cos she was wearing kinda of bikini,straw hat and shades.took quite a few photos on the beach and smiled so brightly that as if we really enjoyed to be basking in the sunshine.then the most unexpected and disappointing thunderstorm loomed from far.waited for the rain to stop but lost our patience soon.succumbed to the coldness and hunger.

i really really hope it wont rain tomorrow,which i know for sure will be impossible

i just visited mr chong's blog

it's really not my habit.cos i couldnt access blogspot in china and i have lost all the blog links since i reformatted my laptop.

i was overwhelmed by nostalgia,almost immediately after i opened the webpage.there are some many photos of familiar places and events that invoke images of the most memorable two years of my education life so far.

i saw photos of mengfei(with mr chong and ms tang) and iwan.they have really done themselves proud and im extremely envious of them.
i saw photos of mr chong's house,where we were amazed by the interior decor,on the day wanqing agnes and shalom went for the comgateway interview.and now all of them have left the company after half a year of stay.
i saw photos of take five 2009,and i can still remember take five 2008 are still vivid.
i saw photos of rafflesians in neatly pressed green&white uniform.
most importantly, i saw the photo collage of "07S06A",though it has been modified by mischievous juniors.nonetheless,i believe that whenever whoever who has seen it last year(teachers,last year J1s,cleaners,security guards and maintenance crew) walk pass the classroom,would always remember us,07S06A

first day of school.

was really excited to go school cos it's a totally new phase.sadly,it turned out to be so blah,well,except for the evolution and progress writing module which appeared to me intimidating initially.

material science and physics lectures were less than interesting.bought a canon black ink refill before rushing for USP.was kinda lost in the block cos i had no idea where 3B/TR 1 was.asked a guy (my closest friend in my writing module so far but i somehow i just cant remember his name) for direction and he happened to be in the same class.11/12 people turned up.saw a few familiar faces there.i think all of them are pretty nice,not pressurizing though some of them seem really intellectual.at least there were still a few non-arts students(2?3?)so i was not the odd one out.but all of them made a very pleasant company though we were a bit quite.maybe things will get better since this was only our first lesson.by the way,evolution and progress is not as daunting as i believed.or maybe when we reached darwinism and eugenics i'll think otherwise.

rushed for my next lecture after usp, so as most of my classmates.the lecturer was really funny.we watched a short clip from harry porter and called it a day.

went to do grocery shopping with vijitra "naphisawanish" a.k.a pear.was online since i reached my room.i think i really need to find another habit besides surfing the net.the only commendable thing about my hours-long internet hogging is that i browsed through the news.havent done this for quite a long time and it turned out to be fun.

after dinner,when astrid went out and i was back to my lonely planet,i was shocked to my death that lwl was flying off tomorrow!didnt expect this,not at all.so i gave him a farewell call.it was really a pleasant conversation.he enlightens me,truly,whenever i talk to him.it's so ironic that i used to hate him to the core.i hope we'll still keep in contact since he's my advisor for all sorts of problems in life.by the way,i think he has become more intellectual and philosophical now.is it because he has read "three cups of tea" that i speedpost to him?

i think im really too bored since im updating my blog.should be doing this pretty often from now on,cos im always alone in the room.should i move to a hall next year？

im back in singapore.and will stay here for another 4years?10years?
have been thinking a lot after reading friends' blogs.the initial purpose was to get myself updated since i was away for 1month and couldnt access to (almost) any blog in china.now,all the things happened during the past 8month holiday are replaying in my mind at a speed of flipping book,which makes me more lost and unable to  find a pleasing answer for anything that has puzzled me for so long.
i feel that i should sort every problem out before the new school term,so as to put an official full stop to my 8month long holiday.unfortunately,before i have time/courage to do that,more problems have gotten in the way,and urgently waiting for me to deal with.

p.s have been listening to amy winehouse lately,which means there's something seriously wrong with me

im back,for 15days
have wanted to post new entries a few times,but i felt there was nothing for me to talk about.
finally came back from china,collected a level result,k box with my buddy and pung,xiaole's bday.....actually quite a lot of things have happened.but i wasnt in the mood to write.i dont want my posts to be sulky whinings.
pung asked me to blog again and i replied her that i would do it again after i settle down.so i guess this should be more or less the right time now
i called kellyservices yesterday.and the star agent,randy neo,has gotten me a job in city bank,telemarketing.i guess i was really high so i talked A LOT during the interview.i repeated the whole interview Q&A session with agnes,i think i portrayed myself as a enthusiastic and confident girl,or irritating,said agnes.but anyway,that was the whole reason why he gave me the telemarketing job instead of admin.the working time is 10 to 7,5days a week.means basically i have to talk for 8h a day,minus OT.i have one quarter of chance to be in the same building as xin'en,cos city bank owns four buildings in the city hall area.i was very thrilled yesterday.now i feel a bit sad cos this job requires me to commit for 3months,meaning i have to stay here till the end of june.my original plan was stay here till end of april.my dad even asked me whether it is necessary for me to come back.cos he thinks this's my last long holiday to stay at home.after this,i'll start my university,working life and have a family of my own.the nearly 3months spent in china made me feel that i had never left my city.i was so used to everything.it was the first time ever since i came to singapore that i felt i was enjoying my holiday,rather than getting ready to leave everyday.
now i have pretty much settled down.i have rented a house with astrid.will start my job next thursday.i'll finish whatever i need to finish before 2008/03/21,12,noon.